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My reflections of 2010 and intentions for 2011.

Complete – Reverb10

My Word for 2011 is COMPLETE
And in preparation for this I will complete my Reverb10 prompts, in one big out-breath.  So I sit here, late at night on The Eve of New Years Eve, proving to myself that I can complete.

December 21 – Future Self
Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?) (Author: Jenny Blake)

My Darling, this year will be amazing, everything you wish to accomplish this year, you are more than capable of doing, with ease and grace and giggles and love. Its all okay, its all gonna be okay, every little thing is gonna be alright. xxx

Dear Younger Self,
Don’t shave your head, ever, okay?
Love Older Self

December 22 – Travel
Travel How did you travel in 2010? How and/or where would you like to travel next year? (Author: Tara Hunt)

I intend to travel to the South Island and to Australia to visit my precious friends in 2011.

December 23 – New Name
New Name Let’s meet again, for the first time. If you could introduce yourself to strangers by another name for just one day, what would it be and why? (Author: Becca Wilcott)

I would like to introduce myself as ‘Fuck’, and use a fancy accent, one that makes it believable enough that this is actually my name, yet obvious enough to not mistake it for some kinda name that does not sound like the eff word. Why? Because the world needs more people named Fuck.

Either that, or Beavis.

December 24 – Everything’s OK
What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead? (Author: Kate Inglis)

Proof? I’m still here, I still smile more than cry, I still giggle to myself and sing as I drive. I still believe in magic and love and I still see beauty in every face I meet. Yes, its going to be alright. It always has been.

December 25 – Photo
A present to yourself Sift through all the photos of you from the past year. Choose one that best captures you; either who you are, or who you strive to be. Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words. Share the image, who shot it, where, and what it best reveals about you. (Author: Tracey Clark)

My eldest son took this photo at my parents’ place about 5 months ago. It was the first visit I had with him in many months and he had grown so much and it made my heart so very happy to spend time with him.

December 26 – Soul Food
What did you eat this year that you will never forget? What went into your mouth & touched your soul? (Author: Elise Marie Collins)

Quite tragically, I cannot recall any one thing that I ate this year that was all that memorable.  Pretty lame really.

December 27 – Ordinary Joy
Our most profound joy is often experienced during ordinary moments. What was one of your most joyful ordinary moments this year? (Author: Brené Brown)

Having my very own bird-bath and watching the very first bird I saw bathing in it, I coulda sworn he was laughing.  So extremely ordinary, so exquisitely joyful.

December 28 – Achieve
What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today. (Author: Tara Sophia Mohr)

Oh, its all about the completion, and that is exactly the feeling I’m going for.  I intend to complete what needs completing in my life, and to begin beautiful, creative, learning projects that I will complete throughout the year.  I intend to bring completion and closure to all that I healed and released this year and move forward with ease.

December 29 – Defining Moment
Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year. (Author: Kathryn Fitzmaurice)

One defining moment?  When I first realised how important feeling safe and secure in my own home was, and that as much as I wished to wish the insecurity away, I needed to change homes to bring that feeling back.  Choosing not to get too mad about having that security taken away from me.

December 30 – Gift
This month, gifts and gift-giving can seem inescapable. What’s the most memorable gift, tangible or emotional, you received this year? (Author: Holly Root)

On Christmas day this year I opened a gift I had saved for nearly two years.  It was a gift to myself, nothing special, just a simple turquoise blue painted rock and a divine piece of labradorite I had picked up on my travels.  At the time I had wrapped them up with pretty ribbon and put them aside, wondering what occasion I would choose to open them.  For nearly two years, no occasion felt right, but on Christmas day, I opened this little gift with a card attached reading ‘Dear Leigh 2010, Love from Leigh 2009’.  Odd thing to do, usually I cannot wait to enjoy such things, but for some reason I don’t quite understand, it seemed right to wait.


Reverb10 – Beyond Avoidance

December 20 – Beyond Avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?) (Author: Jake Nickell)

This year I avoided confronting the reality of my ever-increasing weight. Was I scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred? I guess I could spend all day contemplating those questions or just choose to simplify it right down to ‘shit, nothing fits me anymore’ and forgive myself for avoiding the reality of that!
Bonus: Yes I will! (Yay! I love bonuses)


Reverb10 – Healing

December 19 – Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)

Oh Lovely Leonie 🙂

This year my healing just kinda happened without much prompting. Simplifying my life helped, with ‘less’ around me, the need to heal became less also. I acknowledged what had already been healed and made a conscious choice to not go to those places that I did not need to go to. I let go of having to spend a certain amount of time or effort in healing, of having to explain my healing in ceratin words, of having to follow some healing ‘process’ that I had read about some place…and just allowed myself to feel my way into what I was ready to release and what I was needing to investigate. I simplified healing right down to a belly-feeling, and just went with that. I think I healed my need to always need healing 😉

How would I like to be healed in 2011?
By the ocean, I would like the ocean to wash my hurt away.

Reverb10 – Try

December 18 – Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it? (Author: Kaileen Elise)

In 2010 I wanted to try to make pesto. I did not try to make pesto.
In 2011 I want to try to make pesto.

In 2010 I wanted to try going debt-free, I did go debt-free.
In 2011 I want to try and save some money.

In 2010 I wanted to try losing weight. I did not lose weight.
In 2011 I want to try and lose weight.

In 2011 I’d also like to try making falafel.

Reverb10 – Lesson Learned

December 17 – Lesson Learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? (Author: Tara Weaver)

I have learned that I can.

Reverb10 – Friendship (aka: behind again?)

December 16 – Friendship How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst? (Author: Martha Mihalick)
I appear to be behind again in the daily prompts, bummer.

This year I have learned about the enduringness of deep friendship. I have farewelled a dear friend who moved far away and although we are apart, I feel her with me at all times. I find myself whispering to her when I discover something amazing, I hold the compassion from her eyes in my heart when I feel sad, and I giggle with her when something delights me. Friendship knows no distance. I have re-connected with a friend who I had not seen for many years, we had a ‘falling out’ and kept our distance for a long while, when we met up again, the sorry bit took all of five seconds and the past remained exactly in the past. I learned that forgiveness can occur in a nano-second, that moment when you realise your heart has simply forgotten the hurt. Yes, friendship endures.

Reverb10 – 5 minutes

December 15 – 5 Minutes Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010. (Author: Patti Digh)

What I most want to remember about 2010:

The feeling I got the first day I moved into my new home
The look in my eldest son’s eyes when we hugged for the first time in months
My daughter’s voice recorded on my cell-phone
The feel of the water enveloping me on my first swim of the year
The pink caves I discovered on my beach walk
The insanely good laughing marathons with my youngest boy
The pride I felt watching my mother give a speech on her birthday
The deeply good moment when I sat in the sun talking with friends, drinking tea, and we all went quiet and just looked at each other and declared it a perfect moment.
The exquisite taste of home-made raw cookie dough
Laughing til I cried watching Tim Minchin for the first time

5 minutes up 😉

Reverb10 – Appreciate

December 14 – Appreciate What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it? (Author: Victoria Klein)

One thing
Of all the appreciation-worthy things that have come into my life this year
One thing?
I will name it Technology
Something I probably don’t often enough feel grateful for
I guess I am most often feeling grateful for the spirit-soul-lovey-mooooshy things; my children, my friends, nature, peace, happiness etc etc etc.
But this year, when asked to name the ONE thing I appreciated the most?

Technology has helped pave the way to so much of the good that has come my way this year.
It was technology that led me to the perfect home I now live in.
It was technology that re-introduced me to a long-ago friend
It was technology that aided in my freedom from debt
It was technology that allowed me to create so many good things
It was technology that allowed me to catch up with/connect with/love up on all my much-treasured friends & family.
It was technology that got me a free sample of cat-food 😉
It was technology that made this blog possible
It was technology that gave me the freedom of paying bills while sitting at home
It was technology that enlightened, brightened and fed my soul
It was technology that guided me to music that rocked my very soul
It was technology that allowed me to create my very own virtual town (creating is never a time-waster, no-matter what the medium)
It was technology that led me to discover meditations, courses, books and videos that all helped me grow
It was technology that helped simplify my world

And I appreciate all that, and I am grateful for all that 🙂

Reverb10 – Action

December 13 – Action When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

Everytime I read the word action, in my head it sounds like ‘ax-shon’ 😉

Just sayin’

As for my next step?
Where ever my feet take me is enough for me today

Reverb10 – Body Integration

December 12 – Body Integration This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present? (Author: Patrick Reynolds)

Okay, I’m going to talk about sex
I cannot read a prompt like that and not talk about sex
Apparently we live in a society where it’s no longer a taboo subject, or so I’ve heard somewhere. Yet when people ask me how I am and I reply ‘deeply satisfied, had the best ever orgasm this morning’? Maybe not so not-taboo, huh?
Sex is good. fullstop.
I could get into the bad bits about sex, and the warnings and the bad experiences I or anyone else may have or may yet have concerning sex, but I won’t…I’m sure most of us know that stuff already.
But the simple truth is…
Sex is good.
Wanna talk about body integration? a cohesive you? alive and present?
See, sex is not just good, it is deeply spiritual and stuff too.

Sex makes it really difficult for your mind to wander, (if your mind wanders or wonders during sex, consider better sex, seriously). Sex makes your mind just kinda STOP, there ain’t a lotta thought needed in the process, that dreamy look in your eyes as you’re making love? That’s a mind-freeze, in such a good way. Sex simplifies our thoughts to the point of no-thought.

And while we’re not thinking? What are we doing? We’re feeling, deeply, deeply, really, truly feeling.. IN our body. Thats what feelings are, you feel them…you do not think them, you do not talk them, you do not see them, touch them, hear them, taste them…you feel them. Simple. If you’re ever wondering if you’re feeling your feelings? Think of sex, recall that mind-freezing, body-integrating feeling. Recall the way it makes your face flush, makes your breath quicken, makes your voice just escape your lips without words, makes you shiver…that is what feelings do, all feelings, not just the sex ones, when we deeply feel them, body-feel them.

Yes, sex is good, it is good because it feels good.  We can read research on the squillion-and-one reasons sex is ‘good-for-us’ but is that really necessary?  Do we really need to justify something that feels good?

I think that somewhere along our paths a lot of us come to see sex as not-so-good.  We complicate it, or others complicate it, or it just seems more complicated than what it is.  We develop ‘issues’ around it (I know I did) and we are not always comfortable confronting these issues, we may cover them over with less-taboo issues, we may feel a need to prove these issues don’t exist, we may be careless, or too careful, none of which is going to lead to the simple truth that sex is good.  It does not need to be anymore complicated than that.  And the utter freedom of understanding this is worth the healing that it might take to get there.  It is worth it.  Sex is worth it.  You are worth it.